Damn Scoliosis

Only 21 days to go... well more like 20 now... and my back is giving me problems. God, please, please make my back feel better. I went to the chiropractor again today, an emergency visit because I was in so much pain last night and at work today. I felt immediate relief after he worked his magic. But then at home, while watching a movie, my back started bothering me again. My only prayer at this point is that my crooked spine stops causing me so many problems and that I can make it through our wedding day. It's the day I've been looking forward to all my life... and back pain is something I didn't imagine being a part of it. If you've never gone through back pain, or if you've never been with someone as they're going through back pain... you might just think I'm being a big baby. But it's the worst pain I've ever felt. I've never given birth... so we'll see if it's worse someday. But I hope it's not.

Last night we went to small group and it was really nice. Our group threw us a mini-shower :). They had cupcakes for us from the cupcakery (my favorite place ever) and a nice card and gift for us. We thought that was very thoughtful and a great blessing.

I'm off work this weekend. No plans for Halloween... I don't feel like dressing up like a slut and getting wasted... and I'm too old for trick or treating. I would want to cuddle on the couch and watch the Nightmare Before Christmas or something with my lover... but our couch makes my back hurt. Damn back. I guess we'll see what the weekend holds. 3 weeks until I'm Mrs Mutschler. I have a lot to be happy about. What gives me the right to ask God for more blessings like healing for my back? ... I guess it's awesome that He cares about us as much as He does. Because I know he hears my cry and understands my pain.

Thanks God for being here with me. Please bring me comfort and relieve my pain. Help me to mentally prepare for the wedding in the next few weeks, and help me to focus on what it means to be a woman of God and a good wife to Neil. I love you. Amen.