I'm So Blessed....

Hooray! I've been accepted into the graduate social work program at SIUE! I'm going to grad school for sure :)

Neil and I are taking a vacation to Jamaica, our belated honeymoon in less than a month.

We're buying our first house after we get back from Jamaica!

Life is so wonderful. God is so good.

Here is my dilemma...

"One must train the habit of Faith. The first step is to realize that moods change...We have to be continually reminded of what we believe....(Faith) must be fed....if you examined a hundred people who had lost their faith in Christianity, I wonder how many of them would turn out to have been reasoned out of it by honest argument? Do not most people simply drift away?" CS Lewis, Mere Christianity

I forget how good he is. I forget the things he does for me. When I found out I got accepted into grad school... something that I had been praying for... for months, I was thrilled for a few hours. The excitement wore off... and I continued to be ungrateful. The same thing happened when I found out we got the house.

Why is the human condition this way? Why do some things make us happy and then we forget and move on? We get so used to things so quickly.. we take everything for granted. Well, when I say "we," I'm assuming other people are just like me. So maybe I should say "I," because for all I really know, I could be the only one. But I don't think I am. According to Sonja Lyubomirsky, psychological author of "The How of Happiness," circumstances only make up 10% of our overall happiness. This means that 90% is up to us- our biological disposition and our own choices. So maybe I'm not alone in that.

I just pray overall that with God's help I can be a more happy and grateful person. I really do have a lot to be happy about. Sometimes, I wonder if I have a mental illness... no matter how hard I try to be happy, it is so shortly-lived and it makes me feel like something is really wrong.

For example, I love my husband and then I dislike him.. and then I love him again. All within an hour time span.

Any thoughts? I'm going to keep on going forward... and praying to God...

Thank you for my loving husband
Thank you for answering my prayers about grad school
Thank you for our new home
Thank you for our upcoming trip
Thank you for financial security
Thank you for worship music
Thank you for your overall presence, revealed in my life by the little things...
Everyday.

Amen.