Update: I talked to the youth group pastor at church and explained our situation. He seemed optimistic and non-judgmental. It might work out still :)
There has been a lot of drama going on lately. The biggest piece of drama that has happened... is that Neil has decided (I'm pretty sure) that he'd like to be baptized at our church. Raised catholic, he was 'baptized' as a baby, so his family is having a very difficult time accepting his decision. He wants to make the decision to be baptized, the way the bible describes it- to demonstrate his own acceptance of his faith. He has made a personal decision to be closer to God, which is something that can not be decided for you. No matter what evidence Neil tries to present his family with out of the bible, they explain it away and are unwilling to listen. It's almost as though they see this as committing a sin, even though Jesus commanded us to be baptized. (To be baptized, means to me immersed in water as well, which is not a practice of the catholic faith.) Even though I disagree with a lot of catholic practices, I still feel like they can have a close relationship with God and go to heaven, doing things the way they do them. But it's like they think their faith is superior to mine. But we all believe in the same Jesus. And I feel like instead of just taking the words of those you see as your authority in the church, you should take your questions to the ultimate authority, God. He gave us the bible to use and to learn from. He gave us the bible to answer our questions. Why can't we all just accept it for what it is? Anyway, it's been stressful for me as well to go through this with Neil. I wish his family would be more supportive, because his decision is a good one and I believe that God is pleased with him.
Drama #2: Bridesmaid drama. Erin was mad at me because I told her that I didn't think I'd be able to come to her wedding because it's in Montana, and I don't think I can afford to fly out there when I'm planning my honeymoon for that summer. So she said that she didn't think she'd be able to come to mine. Even though, her wedding is in a year and mine is in three months. I don't feel like it's fair to tell someone that you can be in their wedding and then change your mind three months beforehand. But the only reason why she is acting that way is because she felt resentment towards me for not being able to afford to go to her wedding. So to make herself look better, she brings down my MOH. She told me a secret, something that Lauren did two years ago and never told me about. I don't even want to talk about it here. But I didn't know how to respond, because it made me feel like I couldn't trust Lauren. Then, I realized I can't really trust either of them. I talked to Lauren about it, and Erin was making it sound worse than it was, unless Lauren was lying to me about it. But ultimately, the conclusion Lauren and I came to, is that Erin needs to be the MOH. Even though she hasn't been involved with planning anything and isn't going to be able to come to my bridal shower or my bachelorette party because she lives in Montana now. This is so ridiculous. and petty. I talked to Neil about it. He had some wise words for me. He said that this is the devil trying to make my wedding stressful. He was right. None of this is such a big deal, and I'm not going to let it ruin the most important day of my life, up to this point.
Neil and I read some scripture when we got home from small group tonight. It was refreshing. I think it helped both of us to find some peace amidst this ocean of drama.
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