Double Rainbow

That stupid song has been in my head all day. Neil just had to show me because it's so hilarious. It really was funny the first time but now I just wish the song would go away.... if you're curious, first watch this video (at least half of it): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OQSNhk5ICTI
And then watch this video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MX0D4oZwCsA&feature=related

Anyway... today has been somewhat productive, somewhat not...

I sort of reviewed math stuff for the GRE. Fractions, decimals and percents... fun. I went to the grocery store and purchased a big load. I decided to make chicken soup today and then when I got home I realized that I forgot the noodles. So I went back out to the store for noodles. Then when I came home for the second time Neil asked me how come I didn't grab potatoes. I could have sworn that he told me he didn't want potatoes in the soup, but thinking back on it, I'm pretty sure he said he didn't want tomato juice in it (the way his mom usually makes it, but he liked the way my dad made it better!!). So then I got all up in arms about potatoes because I didn't want to have to drive to the store for the third time... at which point I received a lecture about how I should make a list from now on. yada yada yada.

I don't know why but for some reason I can't get over Neil feeling like an authority figure in my life and I just want to rebel against him in every way. I have never been in a romantic relationship where I have felt this way before. Sometimes, I feel like he just likes to boss me around. I get nagged about what I eat and it really hurts my feelings. He seems to think that I am so lacking of self-control and I need him to constantly remind me of all the things I've eaten and when is the last time I worked out and "are you sure you need a cookie?" Why... that could be the end of me! A cookie!! That'll cause you to have to go out to the store to buy bigger jeans.

I mean, I know that I need to be conscious of what I eat and make sure that I exercise... but it's not like I'm fat. He tells me all the time how beautiful he thinks I am but it seems like the opposite when he feels like he needs to tell me to go to the gym which is something that he doesn't even do. I think I've spoiled him rotten by giving him all those compliments about his body. I am attracted to him but it's not like he's a body-builder. There are certain things about his physique that I am drawn to but I've definitely stroked his ego a little too much if he thinks he has the right to criticize my eating and workout habits. There's a reason why I'd never work in the modeling industry.. and it's not because I can't take beautiful photos. I'm very photogenic and I have confidence... but I'm not giving up cookies for anyone.

>:)