WOW!

It's been a busy couple of days! Of course, I'm trying to study for the GRE (Tuesday is the day) and I'm taking a short break to blog. Actually, my score on the practice test was 1100 so that boosted my confidence a little bit and I'm less stressed about it. I'm working on reviewing some Geometry stuff. Basics right now too.... like a line is 180 degrees and all the angles that make up a line should add up to that. It's coming back to me little by little.

Neil and I went out to dinner Saturday night (after studying for the GRE) with his mom at Houlihan's. It was so much fun! I had a coupon for a free appetizer so we got Spinach Dip. They served it with these huge pizza-like crackers (triangular shaped). For dinner, I had some ribs and mashed potatoes... and I love ribs. As I said earlier, I could never be a model because I like cookies... well I also couldn't be a model because I can chow down on some real food too! Toni and I shared this fried donut desert and even though I was full I couldn't help but eat them! They were served with two chocolate sauces: I believe it was a white Baileys chocolate sauce and a dark Kahlua chocolate sauce. Could be wrong about that. It was heavenly. And they also had a $4 absolut cosmo special, so I had a couple of those! It was a nice break from work. :)

SOOOO.... I just found out that Neil's mom has actually been reading my blog. :) Someone is interested! lol... could be because she is actually mentioned a few times but it's really nothing I wouldn't tell her myself. However, I might just not be so straightforward in person.

Apparently, I have something in my personality about being too blunt and brash. I never really knew that about myself. I guess I just don't filter my thoughts as well as some other people. Yesterday, Neil and I went swimming (in the rain) with one of his good friends. This guy and his girlfriend have been together for about four years and he was talking to us about how they're planning out some finances because they're considering living together. Neil asked him if he was worried about what people might think and he said "no." Now, let me explain my train of thought. "If he is considering moving in with his girlfriend of 4 years, maybe he's thinking they're gonna get married someday. If they get engaged before they live together, people might not look down on it as much." So in that train of thought, I asked him, "So do you think you'll propose to her before you move in or after?" I don't understand why that was such a big deal. But Neil was like "Brandy, give him a break, don't bug him about that." And to that I responded, "What? What's the big deal?" and I asked him "Do you think she's the one?" I didn't notice any tension but Neil seemed to think that you could cut it with a knife. I guess I don't think it's that big of a deal.... if you love someone and you think you're going to marry them, why wouldn't you want to talk about it? It makes me wonder otherwise if you shy away from it that much. Now, of course, I'm only judging from my own experience and I don't really know what's going on in other people's lives.... but I never would have felt upset with someone for asking me if I thought Neil was the one... even earlier on in our relationship before we were engaged. I would've said "Hell yes! He's the one!" ... but apparently I crossed a line....

Also... I got a job at Bella Milano :). I start training on Wednesday. I'm nervous. I don't think I want to work two jobs. But I don't want to quit my job at red robin, just in case bella doesn't work out. I just need to keep praying about it. At first I thought I would just work both jobs, but during church today we talked about the church, and that it is our responsibility to get involved... to move closer to God, each other and the disconnected. And I had almost forgotten, but God gently reminded me that I want to be more involved with church. And if I'm working two jobs and going to school, there will be no time for that. So I'm going to have to pick a job. I'll get a feel for Bella Milano and maybe it will become more clear then.